There are just some days where it is just nice to never get out of your PJ's, and this was one of them. I was not in a lot of pain today. I was more fatigued than anything else--and just so tired...
Sometimes on days like this it feels like my body is rejuvenating itself. It's like a home spa day. I never left the house, but I did go outside to take my fur kids out to go potty.
It has been raining outside today all day, and I'm talking a thunderstorm and flooding, no light drizzle. There were even areas with hail. I for one enjoy listening to the rain, but usually, the body would rather take a pass. Today was not so bad, except I could have slept all day long!
Yesterday was my I.V. infusion day at the infusion center at the hospital. I felt so tired when I left there, and I even took less of the benadryl than usual. I don't know, perhaps my life is just catching up with me. Perhaps all the travel that I've been doing, and preparing for the adoption of our baby, and getting ready for the shoulder replacement surgery, and now with my dog Max's new diagnosis of diabetes--life is just tiring. It seems reasonable. I for one am not a "normal" person either. The everyday stresses of life can be quite a lot for me to handle with all my chronic illnesses. I usually take on too much, with full knowledge. And why, you may ask? Well, I'm a control freak, type A personality, OCD, who tends to overdo everything. I know full well when I'm on the verge of getting overworked, and yet I push it further and further to see if I can get through just a little bit more.
I'm really trying to take better control over myself though. I don't want to wear myself out like this. I am going to do better. I'm in bed typing this post, and then I'm going to sleep. I will not think of anything else to do before going to sleep, except taking my pills of course. Then I will get up bright and early and go to the gym and go swimming. That is what I will do! That a girl! Take care of yourself, Dana! Exercise is good for me, and swimming is great for my joints. I really need to keep up with this until my surgery because when the surgery date approaches, it will be a while before I can do my normal exercise routine again. So yes, I will do that!
Great pep talk!
Now if I could do this for myself every single day, sometimes several times a day, imagine how much better I would take care of myself. Yes, I will do that too! I will begin talking to myself on a daily schedule, several times a day! Add that to my agenda. Now I sound crazy. But no, I haven't lost my mind, I am finally gaining perspective. I have to keep in touch with myself, or I will never get through this waiting...
Then, I will totally lose it when the day of the surgery arrives...
Again, great talk, Dana! Let's do this again tomorrow! Good night, and sweet dreams!
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