Beginning to Turn Around...Thanks to The Signs!

So the last time I spoke I was upset. I literally had reached my breaking point.

Since I last spoke with you, I have done a complete 180 degree spin! When you go through any crisis, like that of a chronic illness that goes out of control,you reach a point where the floor collapses from under you and the ceiling falls in on top of you. Sometimes it is symbolic and other times it can be something realistic and tangible.

I went for an energy healing, and she said to me "I see the foundation of the structure collapsing. Do you know what that means when I tell you this?" At the time, I thought it meant my body's structure wearing down and literally collapsing. I have a joint disease that literally causes the blood flow not to reach the joints, the joints die, they collapse (at different times), and then the only thing left to do is replace the crumbled joints. I have already had my left hip replaced, and on my right shoulder has collapsed and surgery is March 29th to replace it. Well that seems like the tangible, superficial structure that is collapsing. But my world around me was collapsing to. I was losing control. We are in the process of adopting, I am on a path of self-discovery, finding myself spiritually, we are living in a city that is not built for someone like me, and I have a husband who is trying to get tenure as a professor. So, symbolically, my ceiling was falling in on me, and my floor was not feeling very sturdy on my feet.

I was not feeling very confident in my decisions. I began second-guessing things that I would do, and decisions that I would make. I never would do that because I believed that God would steer me in the right direction to take the right path. And even if I took the path less traveled, well, it would be OK because God would get me there.

As I became less and less confident in myself, my arthritis and other health symptoms got worse and worse and all at the same time. My whole body at once was telling me to stop and listen...stop...pay attention to the signs...I always paid attention to the signs before...what the hell made me forget to do this now...I tell everyone else to look and listen to the signs...what made me so special that I didn't have to do that anymore...Well, eventually, my doctor saw my crippled body and said to me that I needed to stop and listen to my body...it's trying to tell me to relax and calm down...I'm obviously on overload!!!

I took a class on Saturday morning about I-Ching. I had no idea what it was. I just signed up for it because a friend of mine was going and sent me the invite. I went to it, completely unknowing as to what was in store for me, but I was intrigued nonetheless. I won't go into details as to what I-Ching is, but will suggest to everyone out there to at least take an intro class about it. It is fascinating to say the least. When I asked my question to the almighty and the energy force of the world and threw the coins, my answer came back to me no quicker than I needed it to to save my life...I received the answer to what was blocking me from getting what I needed and wanted out of life: Hexagram #28--"the breaking point". The almighty and great energy force of the world mirrored back the image that I already new. I had reached a breaking point and "the foundation's structure was collapsing from the bottom as well as the roof from the top caving in from being too weak." Imagine that. It gave me the answer from my blog....!!!!! I realized that I need to stop overloading myself with petty things, worrying about things that I cannot do anything about, and start understanding that God is in control of everything. When I realized this, a huge weight was lifted from me.

I also was given a shot in the butt by my doctor the day before to help with some of the pain and inflammation, but you see sometimes we have to look for the signs and make small changes to relieve excess weight off our shoulders so we can handle life...

Today, my answer to the same question was: hexagram #17 "the following". Following brings supreme success. You may not be able to change the direction of the wind, but by frequently adjusting your sails, you can arrive at your destination.

Those who would acquire a following must speak the language of their followers. Those who would be loved must become the envisioned lover of their beloved. Those who would prosper must bend with natural forces and the pressures of society. In matters of principle, stand firm; in matters of style and taste, swim with the current.

In all human affairs, change is constant. In order to stay fresh, old ideas and patterns must continually be discarded in favor of new ones. Only by being adaptable to the demands of the time can the highest good emerge. Only by adjusting to changing circumstances can you prosper. Remain flexible, and you will gain the confidence of those around you. Bend and you shall not break!!!!!!